Full disclosure here people….this outfit is a good 2 weeks + old.

I’ve basically been on the couch, in bed, or in sweats since, so this was the last time I really looked human.

I have gotten dressed since, I just looked spectacular from the neck up, so no pictures.

Shirt: Gap Outlet, Tee: Old Navy,  Skirt: Burlington, Necklace: F21, Sandals: Target

I did actually get dressed today, so maybe we’ll luck out and get some pictures here. I guess I should show ya what 2 weeks of pregnancy does to someone whose 5’2″ on a good day

With that, thank you so much for all your kind words and congratulations yesterday. I know I’ve kinda fallen off the face of the planet lately, so it meant so much to me that so many of you are still there and care! So far, here’s the details….

Due: 12/12/12 (I know). Most likely won’t make it there though. LJ was c-sectioned a week earlier and doc wishes he’d done it earlier than that. He was a big baby for me.

Weeks: 10 (but look like 4 months)

Gender: ??? but we will find out

Clothes: still sneaking into my regular stuff with an elastic waist or belly band. I’m not one of those cool kids who can wear their regular stuff the whole way through with just a band or unbuttoned, so this is going to get interesting folks!

I’ll keep ya posted as we go!

Just by guessing, you would never know that I’m a Cali girl.

The beach is ok….

I’m not a huge fan of sand, or being hot, or sunscreen, or salt water up my nose.

Chambray: Gap Outlet, Sweater: Old Navy, Jeans: Gap, Necklace: ??, Shoes: Target

I may not be a surfer. I don’t tan….I burn. And any blonde you see in my hair is courtesy of my hairdresser.

But the one typical Cali girl look I’m trying to embrace is the loose, flowy look. I’ve always been afraid it would make me look big as a house. But as some point, I stopped caring. It’s just too comfy

There are times in life when I know that I need to savor each moment, cause it will be gone all too quickly.

Like this morning.

LJ woke up at the annoying hour of 6, so I put him back in his bed and told him to go back to sleep.

Sometime shortly after, we heard him knocking on his bedroom door asking to come out. I didn’t even move, but simply said, “your turn” to the hubs.

Shirt: Gap Outlet, Skirt/Tee: Old Navy, Sandals: Target, Necklace: ???

The next thing I know, it’s 8:00, LJ is nuzzled in next to his daddy, and Hubs is lucky if he has half a butt cheek on the bed. We spend the next few minutes snuggling before Hubs had to get up, but it was what happened next that I want to remember forever.

My little Boo snuggled up as tight as he could next to me, rubbed my arm, and kept saying, “I your baby, I love you mommy.” It was almost like a little kitten purring as it nuzzles up to its mother. So sweet, innocent, and just so much love from someone so small.

It makes me want to throw up to know that the days of him wanting to snuggle in bed, give me kisses all day long, and telling me, “I love you” in front of his friends are coming too quickly to an end.

I just want to sit here, soak it all in, and pretend he will be my little man forever.

I tend to over think things. I’m a planner, what can I say?

I don’t like “grey area”. I need a schedule. I like to know exactly what will be happening.

Sometimes, I need to learn to just chill and go with the flow.

Tee: Old Navy, Jeans: Gap, Necklace: c/o Scarlet Samples, Hat: Charming Charlie, Shoes: TOMS

I’m super notorious for over thinking outfits. Ever since I realized that I don’t have to wear jeans and a tee everyday, I’ve been afraid to wear jeans and a tee at all. I feel like I’ve come so far, I don’t want to feel like I’m going backwards.

Some days just call for jeans and a tee, and I’m learning to be ok with that.

Jeans and a tee doesn’t have to mean frumpy, un-put together, or lazy. Jeans and tee can be an un-over thought outfit, with just the right amount of thought put into it.

I can eat the same cereal for months, then not touch it again for years.

I do my makeup the same way almost everyday.

I cook the same few meals for dinner over, and over, and over again.

I have to remind myself that I need to wear something else besides my favorite Gap 1969 Always Skinny jeans….even though they do always make me look skinny

I wash in the same order: shampoo, conditioner, face, rinse conditioner, rinse face, body. If I ever accidentially deviate from that, I usually end up conditioning my hair twice or something equally as lame.

Right now, my habit is insanely loud colors. It was only 2 days ago that I wore my loudest green pants, so of course that’s long enough that it’s perfectly normal to wear my hot pink pants, don’t you think?

I’m sure I’ll do the same thing with bright colors as I do with everything else….wear them to death for a few months then banish them to the back of my closet for a year or so.

 Pants: c/o Old Navy via Crowdtap, Top: Old Navy, Sweater: F21, Ring: Charming Charlie, Shoes: Target

Am I the only weird one who does this? What are you a creature of habit about?

I hadn’t realized just how comfortable in my routine and surroundings I had become until I up and changed them all. We only moved 10 minutes down the road, but it’s far enough that my whole routine is changed.

I feel like I had gotten so comfortable in the places that I took pictures. Not because I no longer cared who saw the wacko with the tripod, but because I knew I either wouldn’t see anyone, or I’d see the same people I saw the day before…and they already knew I was wacko.

Now, I feel like I’m starting all over again. I don’t know the busy times of day at the park. I don’t know when I get great lighting at the church parking lot. I don’t know what my new “spots” will be.

Pants: Old Navy, Sweater Top: INC, Scarf: Charlotte Russe, Flats: Target

So for now, while I’m still exploring my new neighborhood, I hope you don’t mind the endless pictures you are about to get of my back grassy strip, and my front porch. So for the first time, here is my front porch/gate. Hope you like it, cause you might just see it again tomorrow

Last Thursday I was so excited. I got up early, got in the shower before LJ was even out of bed. Did my hair, picked out a cute outfit, got my makeup on, and sat. Sat, and waited, and waited some more.

The phone never rang.

I shouldn’t have been surprised considering how well this whole buying a house process has gone, but I was. I was convinced that we were going to sign the papers that day.

Instead, I ended up at the park to avoid box city at home.

I was so disappointed that day, and well, for the next 7 days following last Thursday.

Blazer/Jeans: Gap, Tee/Undertee: Old Navy, Shoes: Target, Necklaces: c/o Lisa Leonard Designs & c/o Krafty Kash, Watch: Michael Kors, Ring: Charming Charlie

Now today, I’m all not dressed up with somewhere to go….to go get our KEYS!!! Sweatpants and a greasy ponytail are just what this day calls for.

I guess this is the way it should have been all along. The important adventure was going to the park for a playdate with my favorite boys, not sitting in some office agonizing over numbers and screw-ups and paperwork.

There are seasons in life, and I’m learning this one is a chaotic one.

Lately, most days I’ve either wanted to run away from it all, or go sit on the couch under a blanket and pretend it wasn’t happening. My story is no different from many others. My challenges are no more challenging. They are just mine, and I don’t always deal in the best way possible.

If buying this house has taught me anything, it is to let go and take a deep breath.

Sweater/Blouse: Old Navy, Jeans: Gap, Necklace: c/o Krafty Kash use code FASHION for 20% off, Shoes: TOMS, Watch: Michael Kors

My usual mode of operation in situations like this is to become a giant stress ball. Freak out. Panic. Cry. Generally act like my toddler is currently acting.

As crazy as it seems, I’m the adult now. I have to be the one who holds it together.

That’s when I’m so grateful that I live in this beautiful area, with beautiful trails to walk, that allow me the space to get outside and just breathe.

It’s amazing to me that all those things that you hear about getting older are starting to come true for me. Age does give you perspective, and with that perspective comes a calm new confidence I’ve never had before.

The few of you who read this who knew me back in high school can atest that I was a rather outgoing person. Not really stuck in one group, I was kinda friends with everyone. I was a cheerleader for a year, captain of the dance team the next three, editor of the yearbook, yada yada yada. On the outside, it seemed like I had all the confidence in the world.

Top: c/o Fashion to Figure, Sweater/Shades: Target, Jeans: c/o Nordstrom Rack, Shoes: TOMS, Necklace: c/o Krafty Kash use code FASHION for 20% off!

I still don’t stand up for myself hardly ever. I’m quick to agree with someone else’s thoughts/opinions cause I’m too afraid to speak my own. I often use humor to cover up how insecure I’m feeling. These are things I’ve always done, I’m just now coming to realize why I do them.

Only now, over a year later, I’m learning to have confidence in my blog. I’m better at not being embarassed by “yeah, I write a blog where I look like a narcissist taking pictures of myself everyday”. I can set up to take pictures somewhere where people might walk by. I don’t feel like I have to photoshop out every bag, dark circle, or zit.

I’m getting there, cause I’m realizing it takes more energy to be unconfident than to just go for it.