The Day I Sucked At Life… And It Didn’t Matter

7:15 am: 1st alarm goes off. I roll over, hit snooze, and pray that the next 8 minutes feel like hours.

7:23 am : 2nd alarm goes off. Drag my zombie like body to the shower and attempt to get clean. Washing my hair makes me weak and winded.

7:50 am: Get out of the shower (finally), feel like hell, lay down on the bed for a minute…

8:10 am: Look at my soaking wet comforter and realize I should have changed out of my towel before laying down “for a minute”.

8:30 am: Overnight, I’ve gone from fat to pregnant, and my top for the day no longer fits. Panic, and start trying on everything I own.

8:50 am: Finally settle on a “well, it’s not that bad” outfit.

9:00 am: 12 kisses and 5 hugs later, LJ lets me out the door.

9:15 am: Note to self, a sausage and egg McGriddle is not a good idea.

With how the morning was going, I knew this day was going to be a rough one. I felt like garbage, looked decent at best, had 2 hours on the road by myself to go, and oh yeah… I was about to speak to a room full of bloggers. No biggie.

I’d been looking forward to this past Saturday for months. I’ve been to a few blog conferences before, but never one where I was asked to speak. The few days prior I’d been feeling pretty awful, so I made sure to rest up, enjoy lots of couch time, and watch endless hours of Pixar movies and HGTV. There was no way I was going to let a little thing like growing a child get in my way.

So when Saturday arrived and I felt like I’d been hit by a bus, it took all my strength to simply get out of the door. This was not the image I wanted to project.

I’m a style blogger, should I arrive in something, oh, stylish? I was set to speak to a room full of bloggers I’ve “known” for awhile, bloggers who’ve “known” me for awhile, and bloggers and I was dying to meet. All I really wanted to do was crawl back into bed and pretend this was happening another day.

By the time I got down to Huntington Beach, I felt slightly better, but far from my usual self. I stopped at Target for the mandatory box of Kleenex with lotion, and therefore cover-up to fix my nose. Though I brought two pairs of adorable wedges, I opted for my hot pink TOMS, cause frankly I didn’t have the energy to give a crap if I was having a short day.

The day consisted of pants that wouldn’t stay up, despite a rubber band and belly band, failed crafts, girl talk of boobs that no longer fit into my already giant bra, ding dongs stacked on my forehead, and simply me in all my glory.

I was too worn out to care what impression I was making. Too tired to care if I was living up to the image everyone had of me. Sweating too badly to look graceful while sharing my talk. I was there, I was me, and that was about all I could muster up.

Alissa (I should have listened to you and stayed at your house) from Rags to Stitches 

The funny thing is, no one seemed to bat an eye. Everyone was so nice, so caring, and so willing to grab me a snack or a drink. I didn’t have to explain, everyone just accepted me. When so often I feel like I don’t fit in, it was amazing to be in a room full of women who just accepted me for how I was.

I didn’t need my wedges, or the great top I planned to wear. My upset stomach or gratuitous butt shots during speed dating didn’t matter. I was me, and that was good enough.

I have so much more to say on the wonderful day that was the Elevate Conference, but I just had to share this. So often we women race to put each other down, judge, snicker, gossip, look down at each other. That day, a day where by the looks of it a lot could have been said, nothing but hugs and congratulations were given.

Nichole, Ashley, Summer, Jen, Me, Natalie

I wish everyday could be like this.

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Comments

  1. Great post girl. I am still so nervous about getting pregnant again because its hard to feel like that month after endless month, or so it seems…all confidence sapped. But this is a good reminder that not everyone is judging me as much as I judge myself. Thanks for sharing.

  2. Girl! You are amazing!
    I wish everyday could be as warm and loving as that day was!
    Blessed to have met you!
    xoxo

  3. It’s because you are simply beautiful and amazing from the inside out!!!
    We are our own worst critics and I’m so glad you had a wonderful conference. I’m sure your session was as fun and vibrant as your personality!!! Hang in there and remember the miracle you are growing inside of that belly so wear those tight tops and those high belts and remind the world what a beautiful and amazing gift God allows us to be a part of!!!

  4. Nat says:

    NIna, you were wonderful! I was so happy to meet you and hear your story. I got so much out of your chat with us- so much so that I’m changing my blog url in a matter of days (bought it today) and am completely getting my bloggy…self together. You were amazing- hope you’re feeling better!

  5. valerie says:

    Hi Nina, loved to meet you and I wanted to tell you I went out and got me a kelly green pair of crop pants…..not only because you looked so great, but also because I got a green necklace from soleil selene in my swag bag and thought it would look good with them! I like that you are keeping it real…Thanks again for your talk at elevate.

  6. Elise says:

    I love you and I love this post.

  7. Sara says:

    Aww, I’m so glad you had a good day…it’s amazing and wonderful to know that the Lord knows exactly what we need and brings us these tender mercies. You looked amazing and beautiful..and again, I’m glad you had a great day :)

  8. Nina, this was such a sweet post. It was so nice to meet you on Saturday – and fun being on your Minute to Win It team! :) Thanks for coming, even though you didn’t feel like it! I couldn’t tell. You shined, my dear, and I learned a lot from you. Hope you are feeling rested! Enjoy the rest of your week! xo, Reannah

  9. Breenah says:

    I’m glad it all worked out! I think you look pretty dang cute :)

  10. Nay says:

    Hi Love! This post made me cry a tad bit in a happy happy joy joy kind of way. I loved meeting you last Saturday and you were so ON THE BALL and ABSOLUTELY GLORIOUS:)
    Thank you for the great talk and experience in meeting you.
    xoxoxoxoxo

  11. Aw yay! There really are amazing ladies out there in the blog world. Ladies that want to be your friend and encourage you no matter what! Love to see the evidence of it! :)

  12. Heather says:

    I think you look great! When I was pregnant and miserable I did not get out of my uniform for weeks. I’m serious. t shirt and loungy pants, i lived in them for most of my 1st trimester and into my 2nd. I’m telling you ask your dr for a rx for Zofran. life changing. The conference looks like it was a success. SO wonderful to be surrounded by positive and beautiful (inside and out) women.

  13. Shayla says:

    Great post Girl!!! I LOVED getting to meet you, and I thought your outfit was adorable! Preggers and rocking the bright skinny jeans and TOMS… you are TOO cute!

  14. You have never known that your day had begun like that by spending time with you on Saturday. You looked awesome and your presentation was fantastic! I took away so much from it, could have listened to you all day…for reals! Thanks so much for coming out to hang out with us, it was a blast!!!

  15. Salena Lee says:

    This is why I love you, you are you and you are real, you are honest and you are relatable. Thank you for sharing this. I feel the way you felt most days and I get so caught up in what “I think” I should be wearing, doing, saying, being… and forget to enjoy the moment with others who don’t care about those things and just love me for me. You look great! Loves to you Nina!!

  16. Lauren says:

    Nina, You were awesome at Elevate. I kept thinking, oooo I love great and put together she is! I knew that pregnancy was definitely kicking in but you looked great girl:) Plus you could have been wearing a paper bag, I would have STILL been super excited to meet you!

  17. You are so awesome! I loved this post…The funny thing is is that I wished I could have rocked the outfit you wore because I loved it so much. I’m also glad that we shared like 13 sugar cookies because I’m sure they helped us feel better :) Great job at conveying your thoughts so well. This is how I knew I’d love you in person just like I do on your blog.

  18. Stephanie B says:

    I am SO glad to hear it went well! I never doubted you! You are so talented, wonderful, and cute its not wonder they all loved you. I’ve been meaning to ask you how this went, I’m glad you posted about it.

  19. Nina…..I just read this (don’t know how I missed it….) and I just had to tell you I was SOOOOO sad I missed you. I was unable to go to the conference because of my nieces graduation…and you were the reason I wanted to go. Glad you had a great experience…and the next time there’s a conference in Cali I hope I get to meet you. :)

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