It’s amazing to me that all those things that you hear about getting older are starting to come true for me. Age does give you perspective, and with that perspective comes a calm new confidence I’ve never had before.
The few of you who read this who knew me back in high school can atest that I was a rather outgoing person. Not really stuck in one group, I was kinda friends with everyone. I was a cheerleader for a year, captain of the dance team the next three, editor of the yearbook, yada yada yada. On the outside, it seemed like I had all the confidence in the world.
I still don’t stand up for myself hardly ever. I’m quick to agree with someone else’s thoughts/opinions cause I’m too afraid to speak my own. I often use humor to cover up how insecure I’m feeling. These are things I’ve always done, I’m just now coming to realize why I do them.
Only now, over a year later, I’m learning to have confidence in my blog. I’m better at not being embarassed by “yeah, I write a blog where I look like a narcissist taking pictures of myself everyday”. I can set up to take pictures somewhere where people might walk by. I don’t feel like I have to photoshop out every bag, dark circle, or zit.
I’m getting there, cause I’m realizing it takes more energy to be unconfident than to just go for it.