November 8, 2011 Archives - Momma Go Round

Self Doubt

It creeps up like a fog rolling in over the hills.

I rarely expect it, but should.

Just when I think I’ve got it under control and I’m doing good, it rears it’s ugly head.

SELF DOUBT

Lately I’ve let the fog roll in and overwhelm me. Fill my head with crazy thoughts that do nothing but drag me down.

Am I good enough?

Am I doing enough?

Am I creative enough?

Am I pretty enough?

Source: imgspark.com via Amber on Pinterest

In the past few weeks, I’ve really been trying to push my style boundaries. Try things that scare me. Re-create looks that I love on others. Put things together that seem totally random.

When I’m strong enough to push the self doubt out, these all sound like such great ideas.

When the fog rolls in, so comes the over anaylizing. An outfit that I loved as I walked out of the house, I hate in the pictures. A new piece that I was so excited to get, goes back to the store for fear of looking ridiculous. I look at my favorite fashion blogs for fabulous ideas, then beat myself up cause I don’t look like them.

I let it consume me and take all the fun out of this. It’s just clothes for heaven’s sake! This isn’t world peace…but it sure can feel like it.

Source: piccsy.com via Gabriela on Pinterest

This quote is so true, it’s just hard to remember it sometimes. For me, it’s easy to look around and see many of the things I do have.

A healthy family.

A husband who works unbelievably hard so I can stay home with LJ.

An apartment in a safe, beautiful neighborhood.

Food on my table.

Clothes on my back.

A car to drive.

Those are the things that are easy for me to see, be grateful for, and be happy about. It’s the seemingly inconsequential, almost shallow things that I struggle with. In a world so focused on outer beauty and the quest for perfection, I easily loose sight in the fog.

A scary truth is that I’m so grateful that I was blessed with a son first….I’m not ready for a daughter.

How can I teach self love and acceptance to such an impressionable little mind when I still waiver?

While I’m so much better than I used to be, and need to be thankful for that, there is still work to be done. None of us is perfect, we all have things that we doubt about ourselves. I just need to learn to accept those doubts and move forward.

Fall Colors

I live in LA.

In the suburbs.

That is why the best shots of Fall’s beautiful colors that I can get with the kiddo in tow are in the mall parking lot. I kid you not.

See?

While this maybe a strange location, I could pull the car up with a strapped in child, capture the beautiful colors, and get pictures done before the sunset or the child melted, whichever came first.

Sweater: Old Navy, Button Up: Gap Outlet, Pants: c/o Nordstrom Rack, Boots: Comfortview, Necklace: ???

We usually don’t get much of the “fall colors” around here, so I had to document them. This is the one time of year I wish I lived somewhere else. Somewhere where the trees are all beautiful colors, the leaves are falling, and there is real nature… not just the parking median at the mall.

I have nothing relevant to this little rant to say about this picture. I just really liked having my long sleeves stick out, so I took a dorky picture. Why not?

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